40 Days Lighter – Day 9: I am…

Today I was asked to choose words or adjectives to describe who I am, and paint them on a canvas. I pause, just for a moment before slowly shaping the first letter of my first word.

Once upon a time, I know that moment of hesitation would have come because I didn’t know how to describe myself. I would have sat there, having a moment that felt like an existential crisis, rather than having fun with my sisters, celebrating a woman we love.

But then I turned down the noise, the clutter in my mental space. Lowered the volume on any other voice but that of my Creator, my loved ones and myself. I acknowledged that though I am a flawed human being, I have greatest inside of me as well.

So tonight, I painted with confidence. My mind free of the clutter of labels and definitions and “default roles” that I had neither chosen nor desired for myself. 

And with each brush stroke I answered the simple question:

Who Am I?

If you find yourself unable to answer that question, then it’s time to turn down the noise, remove the mental clutter, clear your headspace, breathe deeply, and accept who God has called you to be.

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