I’ve tried working out at other times in my life, had two gym memberships at one point, but just couldn’t wrap my mind around the idea that there was any form of joy to be found there. I saw each trip to the fitness center as punishment – it was uncomfortable, inconvenient (a nap would have been more appealing), and reminded me just how much of a fitness failure I was.
So what changed between then and now?
Is working out still uncomfortable?
Absolutely! I still feel the same breathlessness as I attempt to increase my speed and endurance on a treadmill or elliptical. Using weights puts pressure on my muscles and joints. Nevermind the soreness that sets in after an intense leg day, arm day or ab day!
Is it still inconvenient?
Well…if you think getting up before 5 am to go the gym, when you have a 5 year old, 1 year old, and you are an impossible to rehabilitate night owl whose brain thinks you’re Einstein right around midnight, is inconvenient, then YES, it’s still inconvenient.
Am I still reminded of the fitness journey ahead of me, to reach a healthy weight and achieve the fitness levels/goals I have in mind?
Yes. It is still apparent that I have a long road ahead as I continue to huff and puff on the treadmill in my best attempt at a run.
What HAS CHANGED is my perspective, my attitude towards this journey. I recognize that I am a work in progress. My journey will never be finished – I’m not just working towards “an end” – I’m allowing God to use even THIS to change my life. I’m giving in to the stretching and tearing and pushing – giving in to the DISCIPLINE of it all – so that I will emerge from this season of the journey STRONGER, with more ENDURANCE, and the ability to RUN with the vision God has given me for my life.
Have you found yourself, once again, going through a process that you have attempted before, without previous success? Are you wrestling with the fact that the circumstances – the discomfort, inconvenience, and your overwhelming need to go through the process – are still the same?
Then I dare you to change your perspective.
But Caleb quieted the people before Moses and said, “Let us go up at once and occupy it, for we are well able to overcome it.”