40 Days Lighter – Day 39: A Beautiful Transformation

Metamorphosis:

  • change of physical form, structure, or substance especially by supernatural means 
  • a striking alteration in appearance, character, or circumstances

I couldn’t think of a more fitting word for what I have experienced over the last 39 days of this journey to being 40 Days Lighter. Now on the brink of the 40th day, the end of this leg of my race towards a better me, I am blown away by how much of my life has been transformed by this experience.

To say that this experience has changed me both inside and out would be an understatement. I am amazed at what God can do when you open your heart to His grace that restores us, refreshes us, and revives us.

I am completing this journey with a new outlook on what life can be like, when I commit to living free, fit, full of faith, and most definitely 40 days lighter.

 

40 Days Lighter – Day 18: Room for Improvement

I had a humbling experience today.

Today was the start of my on ground seminary course for the spring semester, and I will tell you in no uncertain terms – I was NOT happy about having to take it. An Introductory course focused mostly on writing and research (at least that’s what I gathered from the description), was redundant for me at this point. I have an MBA, I write all the time, I know how to do research, and I’m pretty good in the editing department. 

I know – it sounds so arrogant – but in truth, this was my attitude going into the class.

I sat down, ready to “endure” 6 hours of what I  was sure would be a repeat of everything I’ve learned in my college career about writing.

I should have known better. 

Since starting my seminary journey last fall, I haven’t had a single course, no matter the subject, that hasn’t challenged me to my core. Every. Single. Class. Has lead to some “Aha!” moment about who I am, where I’m going in life, what I believe, and what on earth I should be doing with these gifts of mine.

I would soon find out, today’s class would be no different. 

Everything seemed to line up with my initial assessment of the course, until the professor spoke these words that bypassed my pride, sidestepped my assumptions, leaped over my intellect, and slammed straight into spirit.

“You are the people who will be publishing to share the Christian faith. And I have to prepare you for it!”

Arrested by this revelation of the deeper purpose of our time together, and yanked from my self-appointed pedestal, I had no other choice but to assume the posture of the eager student – humble and hungry to learn what I did not know.

In that moment, I let go of my “expertise”, my “experience”, and my “credentials” to free myself to receive new transformational insight on writing well. 

And the floodgates opened. 

As I opted to move from spectator to eager note taker, I found such profound truth in the simplicity of what was being taught – seeing the mechanics of academic writing with new eyes.

How many times have we been in the place to receive something new, something of great value to our purpose and call, yet because it appears simplistic and familiar, we treat it with disdain, missing the possibility of a transformational moment?

It is my sincere prayer that I won’t make this mistake again. I aim to see the world around me with new eyes, fresh perspective, understanding that even in the simple things, God is working His greater purpose out in my life.

This time, I needed to let go of “me”, so that I could receive more from Him!

 

40 Days Lighter – Day 15: Growing Stronger


I have finally arrived at the place where I look forward to going to the gym. And believe me, it’s been a long time coming.

I’ve tried working out at other times in my life, had two gym memberships at one point, but just couldn’t wrap my mind around the idea that there was any form of joy to be found there. I saw each trip to the fitness center as punishment – it was uncomfortable, inconvenient (a nap would have been more appealing), and reminded me just how much of a fitness failure I was.

So what changed between then and now?

Is working out still uncomfortable? 

Absolutely! I still feel the same breathlessness as I attempt to increase my speed and endurance on a treadmill or elliptical. Using weights puts pressure on my muscles and joints. Nevermind the soreness that sets in after an intense leg day, arm day or ab day!

Is it still inconvenient? 

Well…if you think getting up before 5 am to go the gym, when you have a 5 year old, 1 year old, and you are an impossible to rehabilitate night owl whose brain thinks you’re Einstein right around midnight, is inconvenient, then YES, it’s still inconvenient.

Am I still reminded of the fitness journey ahead of me, to reach a healthy weight and achieve the fitness levels/goals I have in mind?

Yes. It is still apparent that I have a long road ahead as I continue to huff and puff on the treadmill in my best attempt at a run.

What HAS CHANGED is my perspective, my attitude towards this journey. I recognize that I am a work in progress. My journey will never be finished – I’m not just working towards “an end” – I’m allowing God to use even THIS to change my life. I’m giving in to the stretching and tearing and pushing – giving in to the DISCIPLINE of it all – so that I will emerge from this season of the journey STRONGER, with more ENDURANCE, and the ability to RUN with the vision God has given me for my life.

Have you found yourself, once again, going through a process that you have attempted before, without previous success? Are you wrestling with the fact that the circumstances – the discomfort, inconvenience, and your overwhelming need to go through the process – are still the same?

Then I dare you to change your perspective. 

But Caleb quieted the people before Moses and said, “Let us go up at once and occupy it, for we are well able to overcome it.”

Numbers 13:30 ESV